Piece of a Story-Jigsaw

- If you have something to say, say it. This silence is just time wasted.
- And what would we be doing with this time?
- I don't know - at the very least something better than the nothing we're doing now.
- No, if we were talking, this is what we'd be doing - arguing.
- We're not arguing.
- Then we're not exactly communicating smoothly, are we?
- I'm communicating fine. Most of the hostility here is at your end.
- I am NOT hostile. I've just had enough, is all.
- Had enough of what?
- Of ... trying to be something in absolute fucking vain.
- Who told you to try to be that "something"?
- No one did - don't turn this back at me. This is not about me.
- Then what is it about? You're avoiding every question with another incomplete statement. You don't need to be dramatic here. This isn't on show.
- I have to pretend to be something in order to play catch up here. I'm a speck of dirt in comparison to you. And, YES, I know - I should just do something and quit bitching, but that's not really the point. The point is that I really don't want to. I'm ... in myself, generally happy. I enjoy most of my life - yes, the general direction can be misguided at times. But these little things. My loves and obsessions - they give me great pleasure and joy. But you ... when placed up against you, they all amount for nothing. So here I am, twisting and turning to create something worthy of myself that can meet the demands in trying to get through to you and being who I "am."
- That's a lot to say.
- Yes, so feel free to judge me. Just ... don't speak your mind. Because I really don't want to hear it. I know the words that will emerge. If not the words, I know the tone and I don't want to hear that tone. Not now, not ever.
- So we should go back to saying nothing.
- That would probably be for the best. Even better if I disappeared and took this with me like a bad memory.
- There you go again, hating yourself.
- Did you not hear what I said? I don't hate myself. I just hate ... other things. I'm expelling the evil foregin bodies from an otherwise happy mind.
- You're deluded.
- Yes, I am. And I've had enough of it.